It's funny the things life does to you. For instance, coming home tonight from shopping I realized my house is empty, how sad. Where if this was to have happened a couple of years ago I would have been happy to enjoy it. Don't get me wrong, I'm not sad or depressed. I am feeling good. I've been working on my resolutions, yes statistically New Years resolutions only last until the end of February. But really, it think I'm gonna stick with it. I must admit that choking down my own advice has been the hardest!
It's been an uneventful January so far. Just working and trying to keep my head above water. I'm starting to think that maybe being single isn't so bad. What's wrong getting to know yourself again? Though the rule the world, concur my demons feelings have faded and left me soul searching but at the same time, I have an inner peace I haven't felt for a very long time, if ever. I am excited to start moving forward, knowing that I have some things to work on. But being able to "label" or recognize the issue has been liberating and helped me know how to better deal with it.
Lucy has been sick on and off for the past couple weeks. Got to love daycare! I've started paying more attention to what she is saying and wow she uses lots of sentences and words. I'm told to enjoy this stage where she doesn't talk back and takes direction well. It still surprises me when she does things I ask her. I asked her to go get a diaper the other day and she ran to her room came back grabbed one of her chairs, took it down to her room and got a diaper and wipes! She's pretty good at problem solving, though she will drop things and scream and point at them, till I tell her to pick it up, and then she will and be happy again...makes lots of sense...
This morning, Frank started to bite his back feet and she runs over next to him and says "I bit feet too" and stuck her foot in her mouth.
The best part was after her bath the other day she was dancing in the mirror saying "shake your booty" I got some of it on video, until she noticed and came at me saying " I want see it"
Its funny how a little 25 lb girl can fill my house. Lucy is the light and love in my life. I watch her and can't believe how big she is getting. She loves her babies. I love when she tucks them into her bed and turns her fan on for them to sleep. Or she will lay them out across the floor in my kitchen towels and put them to sleep or go down the row and feed them, asking them "want some?" I have to laugh when I look over at Frank in his basket and he is tucked in with a towel.
Some mornings she comes into my room calling "wake up mama! Outside Frank!" When the Christmas tree was up she would run into the front room saying "tree on!" She loves Christmas lights.
She has diffidently learned the magic of please, Though she uses it only when she really wants something.
My favorite story this month was when Lucy found a figure skater ornament and she ran up to me and said "it's a mommy!" So funny
I love to listen to her sing. She is so happy, and it surprises me how many songs she has learned.
I am constantly surprised by how much she understands. The other day she asked me for a snack and I told her she had to put her chairs back by her table and then I would get her a snack. I turned around and she put one away and was coming back for the other one.
I am also not so sure how to handle the 2's stage. There are times she will just lay on the floor and cry, and I will have no idea what or why she is crying about. I will be happy when she learns just a few more words can tell me.
